Not really a light topic, huh? Nope, but really weighing heavily on me. Sometimes, if I just write it, I release it to the Creator, and come to peace about whatever it is that weighs me down.
Today, I am putting my vote in for generosity and patience. Not that I'm fantastic at either; I'm just voting for both. Truly, truly, not fantastic at either, but decent at both. I decided a long time ago that I am generous, so, in every situation, in every day, when I come to a choice-point, I choose generous, as it reflects who I am. Naturally, being human, I sometimes rush through choices unconsciously and pick the small, greedy thing.
And, God knows, I'm not praying for patience, 'cause you get the lessons that teach patience. Arghhhh! Same thing here: I decided a while ago that I am patient (a natural outcome of generosity, as I take it to mean generous with time.) Same thing here, too -- I forget. I rush. I slay myself unconscious. I ignore the tug of the Spirit and whip through choice-points like an impatient, selfish jackass.
But, I find that these are things that demonstrate the John 13:15 thing. (By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.) And, believing that Jesus is both God and a way-shower, I choose this.
I say all that to say this:
When someone isn't loving toward me, when someone or something is against me, and there is no generosity coming from the other party, why am I so angry and so demanding that I be loved and afforded generosity right now?
I ask, "Stacey, how long did you hate yourself before you afforded love and generosity to yourself? How many years did you judge yourself unworthy, inferior, unlovable, and hopelessly sinful before the dawn? And who are you to demand that everyone figure out we're all lovable and all loved this instant?"
My job is to love, afford generosity, and extend patience. Not to demand that everyone "get it" this instant.
Tuesday, May 19
Some brief thoughts on our progress as humans on the planet
Monday, May 18
More Quotes
"Feelings aren't necessarily an indication of victory."
"The ugliness of others does not require us to follow suit."
"You're on the g**d*** Batphone, aren't you?"
Friday, May 8
Answer, rinse, repeat.
It's a meme that I'm doing 'cause the Numb3rs did it...
WRITE EXACTLY WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND.
1. Your ex and You = are fine.
2. I am listening to = Oprah interview Elisabeth Edwards.
3. Maybe I should = get my poop in a group.
4. I love = my people.
5. My best friend(s) = phenomenal and indispensable!
6. I don't understand = so, so many things.
7. I have lost my respect for = him
8. I last ate = chicken tikka masala
9. The meaning of my display name is = what my cute niece named me
10. God = IS.
11. Someday = we'll be together (just song lyrics, nothing more).
12. I will always be = A KICK ASS WOMAN.
13. Love seems = lovely
14. I never ever want to lose = my friends
15. My LiveJournal is = only there so i can comment on other livejournal pages
17. I get annoyed = not NEARLY as often as I used to.
18. Parties = WHEE party!
20. Simple kisses = are nice.
21. Today I = helped people get a large amount of work done.
22. I wish = I had known then what I know now.
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NOW
01. is your hair wet? nope
02. is your cell phone right by you? yes
03. do you miss someone? Really, really yes
04. are you wearing chapstick? no
05. are you tired? no
06. are you wearing pajamas? pj pants and a tee
08. are you mad? YES, on Lo's behalf.
09. are you upset? YES AGAIN, on Lo's behalf.
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HAVE YOU
01. recently done anything you regret? recently, no.
02. ever lied? yes
03. ever put gum underneath a desk? no
04. ever kicked someone? yes
05. ever tripped over your own feet? yes. up stairs.
TODAY HAVE YOU:
01. have you cursed? yeah.
02. have you gotten mad at someone? yep.
-RANDOM-
Q: is there a person who is on your mind right NOW? yes
Q: do you have any siblings? yes
Q: do you want children? no
Q: do you smile often? YES
Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? um, no.
Q: do you like your handwriting? Yes
Q: are your toenails painted? they are hotttt, red.
Q: are you a friendly person? yes.
Q: whose bed other than yours do you sleep in? Allie's, Beth's guest room, etc.
Q: what color shirt are you wearing? white with "Campy Vampy Canoe Queen Weekend 2002" on it.
Q: what were you doing at 7pm yesterday? eating dinner, i think.
Q: I can't wait until: I see the Numb3rs/Beth&family/Family
LAST TIME YOU ______
last time you prank called someone? Hell, do not remember.
last time you skipped school/class? undergrad
last time you called your best friend? Last night.
last time you tried to tell someone how you feel? Not sure.
last time you had someone call? couple of hours ago
last time you twisted your ankle? A few years.
last time you drove? Couple hours ago.
last time you cried? Couple weeks, maybe?
last time you pushed someone? can't remember
last time you laughed? Maybe an hour ago.
last time you rented a dvd? couple weeks ago.
last time you worked? Today.
Comments Comments Comments
I have lots of regular haunts in the Internets. I tend to love the content; however, there is a problem with my favorite sites: the comments people leave after the article/video/picture. Here are a few of the sites where I simply canNOT read any of the comments. Oh, sure, I am actually physically *able* do it, but doing it makes my head explode.
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/
- Brilliantly funny and nearly 100% true, even.
- Worst.commenters.ever. These people are quite below average in cleverness, couth, and, in addition, are mean to one another.
- Fantastic magazine! Lots of interesting literary and social news and (mostly) commentary.
- Commenters are mostly laboring under the illusion that they're morally supeirior to everyone else.
- These commenters are the ones who taught me an important lesson: those on the Outer Left have their heads as far up their asses as those on the Far Right.
- Excellent newspaper of my veryown hometown.
- These commenters are frequently cartoons of themselves.
- Many, many, many nasty judgemental comments from people calling themselves Bible-Believing Christians. (That's what actually made me stop reading the comments at indystar.)
- Is there more legal fun available in the wee hours of the morning when I should be sober and asleep? No. No, there isn't.
- These commenters, and I mean the ones whose native language is English, have no earthly idea how to behave in public. Who is this stupid in a public forum? Youtube commenters!
- Wow, this is a helpful site. If you haven't sold a car, found a rental, or bought a refrigerator from Craigslist, you're missing out.
- All I can say about this: "rant and rave" under "personals" is a sign of the end times. Srsly.
Wednesday, May 6
Quotable
Here are some recent quotes that I’ve collected. Hope you enjoy them, too!
About family dinners: “It’s Easter. We’re serving ham and angst.”
About doing something kinda stupid: “You’ll have to excuse me. I’m one-quarter moron, on my mother’s side.”
About no-necked dudes: “If his own neck deserts him, we have a problem.”
Regarding dudes named Steve: “Steve’s are dicey. They can go either way.”
Regarding places that straight men like to be: “… and occasionally, that warm, soft place may have to be Florida.”
